this weekend

it was so good seeing your faces
it was so sweet hearing your voice

but oh how much better
but oh how much sweeter
it was to see Your face
to hear Your voice

for i know the plans i have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and i will listen to you. you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. i will be found by you and will bring you back from captivity.

take my love; my Lord, i pour
at thy feet its treasure-store

as i stare at this space and think about all the love, all the passion, all the fears and frustration that tag along, the voice i adore, the smile i melt for, the words that i crave, i feel all this anxiety, all this asd;fka;sldkfjl and it's building up and swelling and swelling and freaking swelling until i can't breathe under the weight of this black glob of human passion and the ugliness of my inability to describe the sheer measure of this love i'm trying to let go of. i'm not giving up on love, no, i'm giving it up to You.

it's all for You
i'm letting go
i'm letting go.

and i am ready for Your life
and i am ready for You now.