chris

that space belongs to everything i can't bring myself to say to you
everything i don't know how to say
i start email after email, but i can never finish
i hardly even get past your name
and so i duck behind a cover of silence and ambiguity
not because i've moved on or forgotten
but because i'm scared to let you see that i haven't

but i can see the words that belong there
i know them all by heart