i finally have a toothpaste preference

colgate > crest.

and this is a monumental change in mindset
since i'd always considered the two interchangeable.

but there is such a fundamental difference,
a risk factor that i'm unwilling to take-
the twisty cap,
oh, how much grief you cause me.
i just don't have enough hands when i'm brushing my teeth to maneuver the twisty cap. so i end up not recapping it, because it is such a hassle, and then the toothpaste dries out and it's such a hard time squeezing it out and it's all clogged up and hardened and gross. grief, i tell you. grief.

and with crest, the chance of a twisty cap,
is just a risk i'm not willing to take.

the twisty cap and the flippy cap make all the difference.

and i stand in awe of You

imported from facebook.

each grain of sand is a tiny work of art



and i'll let my words be few,
jesus, i am so in love with You

ah! except i do have to say a few words.
they may end up just being unintelligible utterances of awe
but we'll see.

it just blows my mind that each one of those,
that pretty blue spirally thing,
is a grain of sand- a grain!

God. wow. just.
wow.

how could You possibly not be good,
how could You possibly not be beautiful,
when You've made even a grain of sand so beautiful.

this is how much You love us,
how much You love the world,
that You would put so much care and love and beauty
into something we can't even see.

unlike a sunset or a rainbow,
those brilliant displays that we "oo" and "ah" over,
our eyes can't even see this and we wouldn't know the difference if they weren't each perfectly crafted.

after all, we just stick our toes in it, and kick it around,
and lie on top of it as we stare up at the obvious beauties suspended in the sky-
the stars, the sun, the colors, the clouds.

but this. this is purely because You love us,
and You wanted everything to be perfect.
wow

ah but there's more!
today in bio anthro we talked about how
humans aren't even remotely the best at anything-
not speed, not acute vision, not strength, not hearing.
but the one thing we do have is the the best color vision on the planet-
we can see more than 60 million different hues.

personally, i'm so glad and thankful and just plain love
that He chose that one for us ♥

to Him alone who does great wonders

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His love endures forever

who by His understanding made the heavens
His love endures forever

who spread out the earth upon the waters
His love endures forever

who made the great lights-
His love endures forever

the sun to govern the day
His love endures forever

the moon and stars to govern the night
His love endures forever

psalm 136:4-9



He reigns-
from each glistening drop of morning dew to the twinkle of every star.
from each blade of grass to each wisp of cloud.

and every moment is filled with His glory.
look out for it :)

He has made everything

beautiful
in its time.



























He has also set eternity in the hearts of men;

yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
- ecclesiastes 3:11

just as a sunset in all its majestic hues sets the sky ablaze only at a certain time each day, so does our hearts wait for His touch of love and passion. and just like the pastels of dawn and the golden noon, all the rest of the day isn't any less beautiful ♥

so i wait for You. so i wait for You.
i'm falling on my knees, offering all of me-
jesus, You're all this heart is living for.

at the risk of being a sappy broken record

i miss you more than those three words could ever hope to embody.

i made me a twitter.
it's fun. won't you join me? :)

so, i was feeling bummy tonight
after failing miserably at working on my paper
and it was 8:30pm-ish,
therefore, consequently, accordingly,
your 8:30am-ish.

i almost broke and called you.
but i realized that i was tired
and sad and missing you intensely
and decided it might not be the best idea to call you in that state of mind when you are likely to be busy running around doing important things.

sooo,
i didn't.

the end.

you gotta tell me it's true

you feel the same.
i'm so much better
when i say your name ♥

we close our eyes

what sound, what tune, what smell, what colors, what syllables,
what can capture the intensity of emotions in my heart?

so instead,
i lie curled up on my bed,
basking,
wallowing,
immersed.

dui bu qi, la

cause when i'm with him,
i'm thinking of you

that's why i wanted to talk to you so bad last night
why i missed you so much

spending time with him only makes me feel worse because he's not you
none of them are

i'm sorry i was so immature and sensitive last night
please, don't hold it against me

piece me back together when i fall apart
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
make me feel good when i hurt so bad
best that i've had
i'm so glad that i found you
i love being around you

you make it easy, as easy as 1, 2,
1, 2, 3, 4
there's only one thing two do three words four you
i love you

screw you

way to make me feel like crap.

sad mad frustrated upset hurt crap.

screw.
you.

love is waiting on His time

i will wait Lord and be still-
waiting for Your hand
to make the first move

"love is waiting on His time"
my original intent was that love, the noun, is waiting, the verb, on His time, what the noun is waiting on. but i just realized that, well not just but i realized that it could also mean love is "waiting on His time," that is what love is. so, 1) love is waiting.. on His time. and 2) love = waiting on His time.

i'm waiting. watching.
pondering You.

&i was begging you please don't go

i watch as lovers pass me by
walking stories- who's and how's and why's
musing lazily on love, pondering you

i'll give it time, give it space
&be still for a spell
when it's time to walk that way,
we wanna walk it well

it's okay,
i am not in denial either.

i am not waiting.
i am not missing you intensely.

chocolate can only tide me over for so long