whooosh

that's the sound of the fall.
or the sound of the savior that sweeps in and grabs me by the waist moments before i crash.

i'm doing it again-
that thing where i try to see how long i can go without checking my phone
in order to preserve myself from the pangs of frequent disappointment
but where my plan backfires is that the anticipation builds up,
takes me higher
and i have a longer way down

i definitely jumped the gun.