onward, ho!

god, i feel loved.
oh charles :)
i'm excited to see you too.

i really do have a lot to look forward to.
the most immediate might be friday
with its possibility of ultimate frisbee
and at the very least,
i'll get to satisfy both my strange and my more understandable fixations.
and once again on sunday, followed by dinner with a different set of fixations from a different time and place

and then when i get to boston
there'll be all that new-ness!
and even more than that,
there'll be people from my past, "familiar faces" who i may have known briefly and loved, who will hopefully take on larger roles in my future,
people with whom distance no longer plays a factor :)
i can't really capture that
that
this is so incredibly frustrating
i've been lying on my back staring at the ceiling trying to coax the right words out for quite some time now
yet they just won't surrender and assemble like good little soldiers to tell of these
pseudo "old friends"
i mean, technically,
we were never really friends
we knew each other for but a week, a weekend, three and a half weeks
and it wasn't even that we were the best of friends during that period
there was a general air of aloofness
but emotional attachments somehow caught into the fabric of our souls
we would've been friends given time, i know it
but we never got the chance to
but now we actually have the chance to become friends in its truest sense
go out and goof off together
celebrate birthdays and grab bites together
or so i hope.