i'm so distracted

and i so can't afford to be.

ahh. your fault
i blame you for not being able to focus on my work

ironically, you spoke those words to me but a week ago.

i'm not sure how i'm supposed to feel.
do you want me to feel this way again?
do you even realize you're eliciting these results?
your words and your feelings never were consistent,
or at least you tried to convince me they weren't.
but once again,
the calls, the songs, the words..

i want to believe.