gripped

i never realized the extent to which i was attracted to a guy who could really throw a football
i can't even explain it in words right now, i'm so gripped
practically by my nonexistant laces like a football cradled in their hands
it's like they just ride their beauticiously perfectly flat spiraling football straight into my heart
it literally takes my breath away when i see a throw like that (yes, winston, it's your throw that has inspired this.)
it's wonder,
rapture,
envy,
admiration,
adoration.

oh, baby.