to Him alone who does great wonders

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His love endures forever

who by His understanding made the heavens
His love endures forever

who spread out the earth upon the waters
His love endures forever

who made the great lights-
His love endures forever

the sun to govern the day
His love endures forever

the moon and stars to govern the night
His love endures forever

psalm 136:4-9



He reigns-
from each glistening drop of morning dew to the twinkle of every star.
from each blade of grass to each wisp of cloud.

and every moment is filled with His glory.
look out for it :)

He has made everything

beautiful
in its time.



























He has also set eternity in the hearts of men;

yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
- ecclesiastes 3:11

just as a sunset in all its majestic hues sets the sky ablaze only at a certain time each day, so does our hearts wait for His touch of love and passion. and just like the pastels of dawn and the golden noon, all the rest of the day isn't any less beautiful ♥

so i wait for You. so i wait for You.
i'm falling on my knees, offering all of me-
jesus, You're all this heart is living for.

at the risk of being a sappy broken record

i miss you more than those three words could ever hope to embody.

i made me a twitter.
it's fun. won't you join me? :)

so, i was feeling bummy tonight
after failing miserably at working on my paper
and it was 8:30pm-ish,
therefore, consequently, accordingly,
your 8:30am-ish.

i almost broke and called you.
but i realized that i was tired
and sad and missing you intensely
and decided it might not be the best idea to call you in that state of mind when you are likely to be busy running around doing important things.

sooo,
i didn't.

the end.

you gotta tell me it's true

you feel the same.
i'm so much better
when i say your name ♥

we close our eyes

what sound, what tune, what smell, what colors, what syllables,
what can capture the intensity of emotions in my heart?

so instead,
i lie curled up on my bed,
basking,
wallowing,
immersed.

dui bu qi, la

cause when i'm with him,
i'm thinking of you

that's why i wanted to talk to you so bad last night
why i missed you so much

spending time with him only makes me feel worse because he's not you
none of them are

i'm sorry i was so immature and sensitive last night
please, don't hold it against me

piece me back together when i fall apart
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
make me feel good when i hurt so bad
best that i've had
i'm so glad that i found you
i love being around you

you make it easy, as easy as 1, 2,
1, 2, 3, 4
there's only one thing two do three words four you
i love you

screw you

way to make me feel like crap.

sad mad frustrated upset hurt crap.

screw.
you.

love is waiting on His time

i will wait Lord and be still-
waiting for Your hand
to make the first move

"love is waiting on His time"
my original intent was that love, the noun, is waiting, the verb, on His time, what the noun is waiting on. but i just realized that, well not just but i realized that it could also mean love is "waiting on His time," that is what love is. so, 1) love is waiting.. on His time. and 2) love = waiting on His time.

i'm waiting. watching.
pondering You.

&i was begging you please don't go

i watch as lovers pass me by
walking stories- who's and how's and why's
musing lazily on love, pondering you

i'll give it time, give it space
&be still for a spell
when it's time to walk that way,
we wanna walk it well

it's okay,
i am not in denial either.

i am not waiting.
i am not missing you intensely.

chocolate can only tide me over for so long

ash wednesday

"you are dust, and to dust you will return."

this year, i decided to do lent. at first it was nothing more than a fun challenge, like my flickr 365. i was going to give up meat. then i realized if i really did that, i would start living off chocolate and cheese pizza, so instead, i decided to give up chocolate and cheetos. and then tonight i decided to go to highrock's ash wednesday service, looking simply for some good worship and some good ol' peace of God. but i got so much more. God really taught me something about fellowship and just about loving Him above all else. so part of the ash wednesday service was the imposition of ashes on the forehead and so we each got down on our knees one by one and pastor dave smear ashes in a big fat cross on our forehead. and even among all my brothers and sisters i felt a little self-conscious and before service was even over, i was wondering what standard procedure was for wiping off the ashes after service. but then at the end, pastor dave challenged us, me, by totally calling me out and challenging us not to wipe off the ashes after service even if we're tempted to because we're going out after or going back to campus or to dinner, but the ashes represent the sin we have inside and why should we wipe it off and pretend like we're perfect inside? so there we were, the five of us who went to this service from tufts, ben, dilys, sharmaine, hui, and i, and lisa drove us home, and it was a crowded but very joyful ride :) but then we were back on campus and the big black smears on our forehead were still there, marking us, identifying us, setting us apart, and i started thinking about being different and how that wasn't a bad thing, what's so bad about being recognized and labeled as christian. and another thing was just, it was so much easier when i was with the other four. it's so hard to be a christian alone, because even if you don't have a literal black mark on your forehead, you have the scarlet stain of Jesus' love covering you and you SHOULD look different. and it's like the way birds fly in a V formation with one leader taking the bulk of the flying and the wind resistance, i think that was it, either way, the one at the tip always has it the hardest, but that's why they're in a V, because when the head one tires, he flies back and joins the back and a new bird steps up. and that's what a fellowship should be like. when one brother or sister runs out of steam or passion or faith, not that we're supposed to, but if we're honest, we know that sometimes we're just more on fire than other times, the other brothers and sisters step up and spur that brother or sister on with their fire. and it's. oh my. i have so much running through my head.

here's my shot for the day for my 365 project. it's more appropriate for today than i realized at the time. ash wednesday begins a period of lent where we recognize all the brokenness and sin in our lives and reconciles with God. we run out of shame and darkness into marvelous light.

see the light that i have found,
oh the marvelous light,
the marvelous light.

confetti rainfall &the quiet street
the beauty is in what you make it
so get up on your feet

because tonight, the world turned in me
because right now, I don't dare to breathe
oh babe, I know it's alive &somewhere for us to find tonight
chase this Light with me ♥