i don't know what to do with myself-

my heart hurts.

there's no other way to put this,
no fancy way to capture it poetically,
it's simple and blunt: it hurts.

i just hurt.
everything hurts.

and for the first time i really understand what taylor swift is singing about in breathe

and i can't
bre-eee-athe
without you
but i have to

i honestly feel like i can't breathe right now.