being around you confuses me-

i get confused about what i want,
and i'm just as confused about what you want.

i mean you kind of made it clear what you wanted,
or more specifically, didn't want,
but i can't help but believe that underneath your words
your heart is whispering something else.

i'm usually someone who is so sure of myself,
so sure of who i am and what i want,
and then you, with that smile,
and that heart, and that.. i don't even know.

how did you end up landing that position?
and what does this even mean for everything my heart thought it knew?

or maybe none of that even matters,
it doesn't matter what my heart thinks,
what it wants because maybe,
i had my chance
and i blew it.