the best thing to hold onto in life is each other

- audrey hepburn

in that case, 

i must suck at life.

i keep hurting people

and losing them.

and asdf.

i'm sorry

i'm sorry i'm sorry

i'm sorry for all of it

all of you

blahhhh.

i get so caught up in flailing about all my love for everyone and everything that i don't even realize when casualties occur. and then when i realize, it doesn't even matter because it's too late- the damage is done. 

我这个人啊。

no one should ever take what i do or say seriously.

and they especially shouldn't read into it.

i don't mean to.

God has a lot of work to do in me yet.

and maybe it's the rear-view-mirror-distortion or maybe it's all the madness and loneliness in all these endings but i miss you, i miss us, i miss how much sense it all made to me.