better is one day

would you know my name
if i saw you in heaven?

would it be the same
if i saw you in heaven?
- tears in heaven/eric clapton

what if it's "no"
you tell me it isn't
but
what if.

sure, we'll have all the time in the world
but
what if it's we, individually
you, me
we
in its simplest function as a plural
grouped merely quantitatively
i will have all the time in the world
you will have all the time in the world
but we,
together...

all the time in the world
in a state of vague inebriation?
an automatic ecstasy?
after all,
there will be no sorrow, no tears in heaven
but isn't it said:
the joy is not the same without the pain

i don't even know what i'm going on about
i don't mean to doubt

i'm not good at this
i feel so unsure, timid
appreciating life is my forte
that's what i'm good at
i can help you appreciate all the little things
i'll paint for you dazzling shades of silver
i'll pick roses and hold them to your nose

but i need you here when i lift my eyes past the roses,
the faces, the sky, the joys constrained by gravity
i need your confidence to grasp the surpassing joys awaiting
i need to borrow your steadfast knowledge that truly,
better is one day.